MIKE YACONELLI MEMORIAL SERVICE
November 15, 2003

Trent Yaconelli

trent The reason I played this song at my Dad's service is because it was his favorite song of mine. I play in a rock band called Five A.M. that travels around the western states. We are not a Christian band. At one point my Dad came to see me play and pointed out the songs he really liked which all had a spiritual element to them. He also said, "You know Trent you do a lot of songs that have the sex and rock-n-roll type theme but you are a better writer than that. Don't be afraid to dig deeper and write more songs from the heart." That was a turning point for me as a writer. I was writing songs that I knew the people in the bars and clubs I played in wanted to hear but I had a whole book of songs written down and in my head they needed to hear. I wrote "inside out" and when my Dad heard it he loved it. He loved the fact that I was singing Hallelujah in a room full of people…some drunk, lonely, broken, or lost. He told me those were the people that needed to hear that message the most. When the band was passing through Yreka my Dad asked me to play this song and few others at his church, that day will always be a proud and happy memory for me. The song is about not closing yourself off to the world. That even though terrible things happen, even though it is difficult, even though there will be times when you want to crawl in your house and never come out you must live open because once you close down you begin to lose the capacity to love and receive love. Life is hard but in the midst of our own brokenness we must push forward and live boldly, forgive easily, laugh often, risk everything, and love big. My father did and I think that is why he liked this song.

Inside Out

I want to be inside out let my heart go walking about
And I will see everything in front of me
I want to let the light come in, no more walls to fence me in
And I will see the son in front of me

I will reach and I will crawl but I will be alive through it all
And I will bleed and I will shout
I will feel love again, when I am inside out

I want to be inside out face my armies of fear and doubt
And I will see them fall in front of me
I want to cross oceans of sand and feel the breath of god on my hands
And I will see water in front of me.

I will reach and I will crawl but I will be alive through it all
And I will bleed and I will shout
I will feel love again, when I am inside out

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah